Misslyckandets styrka : En essä om att utvecklas genom misslyckande som fritidslärare.

Sammanfattning: My scientific essay is about how I as a recreational activities teacher deals with failure in my profession and how that approach affects the students. I takes its starting point in a self-perceived tale where I act as recess monitor. Suddenly I realize that a colleague and I are the only ones outside during recess with hundreds of students. The students will meet an educator who is unconcerned, stressed and irritable instead of the engaged recess monitor they are used to. I feel like a failure in my mission as a recess monitor and begins to question my professional identity. I try to find someone to blame but realize that the feeling of failure also depends on that I have a hard time accepting my own lack of skills. My questions at issue are, how can a recreational teacher relate to failure in the profession? And, how are the students affected by the pedagogue’s approach to failure? The method I have used is scientific essay form which has given me the opportunity to deepen my reflections connected to literature by philosophers and scientists within the educational area. I also use the governing documents which decides how I should exercise my profession. These are Curriculum for the compulsory school, preschool class and the recreation centre 2011, The General advice for the recreation center and The Education Act. I have based on the reflections investigated how I could have behaved different, how my behavior affected the students and how the recreational teacher is able to develop through failure. I have examined my question at issue in dialogue with theories and reached a conclusion how to work with failure can proceed from the maturity theory, symbolic interactionism, differentiation of self and deontological ethics.